What then?

You dream of all these things you want, but once you have them, what then? You say things like 'I will make this happen in five years' and I just wanna ask, if you do, what then? And even if you can't, what then? You have someone who loves you but also has a list of tendencies you can't put up with, what then? You have no one who loves you, what then? You have someone who loves you but you can't hold on to, what then? You have parents that don't understand you, what then? You have parents who understand you but you're still fucked up in the head, what then? You resemble the people you don't want to become like, what then? You have given up on all your art, what then? You have given up on the people you promised yourself never to give up on, what then? You have been crushed to the ground and your heart still fucking finds a way to love, what then? You have been weak enough to let your guard down when you shouldn't, what then? You have been strong enough to break someone else's heart, what then? You have ruined someone's day, or month, or year or years, maybe even a decade, what then? You have begged and prayed and hoped and lost it all despite every single effort you made, what then? You have been quiet, you have been loud, you have been everything and nothing and they still didn't realize what was hurting you from within, what then? You are breaking your back every single day to pass an exam but you still fail, what then? You are unable to focus on your career despite knowing its all you have to save you from being broke, what then? You have this inconsolable need for love but no one comprehends your soul the way you want, what then? 

What then? 

WHAT THEN? 

Would you tell your friend to give up if they suffered any of the above? I guess not. So let me say this to you today..

Dearest Anonymous,

Life goes on, with or without people, with or without fame, with or without success, with or without you. The world will keep spinning, all of us will one day be forgotten and that's inevitable. We don't know what's beyond this life and the reason we don't know that is so we can live this life the way our heart seeks to. You didn't pass that test? So what!? You were meant to be somewhere else. They didn't love you back? So what!? You're gonna find someone who worships the ground you walk on. Your parents don't understand you? So what!? You'll find a family that does, the friends that would stay no matter what. Your inherent fear of being lonely forever is somehow keeping you lonelier than you think, so open your arms to the endless possibility of the universe and just feel everything, experience everything and don't connect those experiences with your emotions, just flow through it all and learn what you should but don't let any of it kill you from within, or burden your little heart. Nothing is worth hurting the soul you carry. 

and you know the best part? your emotions are faster than your thoughts, they're inevitable to avoid and so hug them tight and you'll realise the thorns upon them are just for show and they hold you tighter, love you more if you could just embrace what you are and stop hoping someone else would appear to do so for you. Someone obviously will, but not until you yourself stand first in line for You.