A letter to God - Its Not What You Think

I do not know what to start with because you're dearest to me as an elder brother I never had, but you're God and I'm afraid many will be offended if I am somehow unable to show how much respect for you I have. 

I just have a wish, one tiny voice from within that wants to say this..

If I can be one thing,

Make me humane, not just human.

If I can be two things,

Make me kind and humble. 

Kind enough to be true but humble enough to not be rude. 

If I can be three things,

Make me a daughter that breaks generational trauma,

Make me a sister they call first when in trouble

Make me a friend they can always rely on when their hearts are broken. 

If I can be four things,

Make me strong enough to weather the storms life will put me through. 

Make me grateful for everything I get to have, learn, keep and let go. 

Make me empathetic enough that my heart never chooses hatred or ignorance out of selfish motives. 

Make me ignorant to the possibility of indulging in wrongdoings. 

The list could go on, now I see I have so much to be. 

So Dearest Brother, make me your voice, give my heart your strength, give my mind your clarity, make me Home. 

For home represents the safety we all eventually want to return to, for it represents not the place we grew up in but the place the we could finally stay in without the worries of the world. 

Let me be the vessel to your energy. Not greedy enough to hold it forever but willful enough to serve for as long as life agrees.